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What is a true friend?

What is a true friend because honestly I don’t have a clue anymore! I could swear I’m so angry lately about this! It has really got to me these past couple of weeks and I’m ready to burst

How can somebody be there for us when Riley was going through his cancer treatment and then just treat me like a piece of dirt on their shoe. But tbh even when I think back all they did was come to the hospital once or twice…

Over the past few days I’ve sat here in my own mind thinking what the hell is a true friend? Surely they don’t lie to you? Hurt your feelings? Not listen to you when you try telling them things? Makes you feel down? Makes you doubt your not actually good enough?

I’m pretty sure a true friend doesn’t ask where I am? What I’m doing? Doesn’t ask how I even am?

I get to the point where I no longer want to go online on facebook to be asked twenty questions.

How can I say they’re my best friend when they don’t even ask me how I am? Yet when they ring me it’s the first thing they ask me then all they do is talk about themselves and have a moan. Like is that all in good for? How can I say they’re my best friend when they have totally pushed me to one side because in their eyes somebody better has come along. Yet they moan about them too me? What even is that? What them two people have done to me when they have been together has been awful, it’s been upsetting and it’s made me angry.

I’ve been made to feel like I’m been stalked. Like I can’t go out because somebody who knows them are feeding back information too her.

How can they not ask me how I am? If they was there for me like they make out to be they’d ask me how I am right?

I’m seem to be the person people take things out on lately. The person people just moan at when things don’t go there way. The person that gives the advice but when it comes to me needing somebody to be there they don’t want to know.

This is surely not a true friend?

Deep down I don’t know what a true friend is.

Don’t get me wrong I have people I can talk to online but it’s not the same is it, let’s face it.

I honestly feel like I’m not good enough, I’m not worth the time. I feel like they just don’t understand I have other priorities. I can’t leave my child to go out every weekend it’s just not fair on him or my parents.

I am so upset and so angry. My heart is raising in so annoyed. I can’t carry on like this. If I have no friends then so be it. I don’t need somebody like this is my life forever. I can’t. I don’t need the drama or the upset!

I need a true friend. Whatever that is.

4 thoughts on “What is a true friend?”

  1. Interesting question. I can tell you that I only have 1 true friend. There are many other people who I socialize with– but only one person who is always there for me through thick and thin and vice versa. We’ve been friends for over 20 years and only the past 5 or 6 years have I really valued our friendship for what it really is. Good friends are super hard to come by and the relationship takes work– much like a marriage. BUT, when a good friend comes along, it’s worth the work– so don’t let go ❤

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