It is absolutely devastating to hear that your child has cancer and you will have many different feelings and emotions.
When i was told Riley had cancer, I felt like the world was crashing down around me, i felt numb, I felt like everybody knew what I had just been told. I was shocked, scared, sad, angry, I just didn’t want to believe it and i felt so guilty! I think these are normal reactions. I’ve had conversations with nurses and doctors before about blaming myself and I have to remember its not my fault that Riley got cancer, i didn’t do anything and there was nothing I could do!
Guilt is rife among cancer parents, Was it something I did?
Could I have prevented this?
I know there was nothing I could have done because we don’t know why children get cancer. Whatever causes cancer in children is not the same as what causes cancer in adults. I know its important to know that it’s nothing I did.
Researchers have looked at every possible cause – from what mummy ate during pregnancy to the parents’ jobs, to where they live. They can’t come up with a reason why some children get cancer, and others do not.
I guess we pulled the out the short straw.
I think some people think cancer can spread like the flu! Like if their children are near your child they will catch cancer. Its not like that at all. I honestly felt like when Riley was diagnosed that everybody was trying to keep their children away from him because they honestly thought they would catch it!
I used to look at children who had gorgeous hair running around the park or just over at the shop and I used to think what if they have cancer? why wasn’t it you? why did it have to be my child?