🎄 Blogmas | Day 22 | 3 more days till Christmas. #blogmas

Can you believe it is only 3 more days until Christmas? I can’t!

I have so much wrapping to still do! I’ve not even wrapped half of Riley’s yet let alone my families. So think I will be definitely still wrapping Christmas Eve!!!

I won a photo shoot earlier this December so I picked to have a 3 generation photo shoot with me Riley and my mum. We had our hair and make up done too! Was so nice to have somebody else do my makeup for a change. Wish I would have done my own eyebrows though as the MUA artist only filled in my eyebrows but I prefer them to be popping!

We managed to get some lovely pictures though. Riley wanted to get them all but I didn’t want to be spending loadsssss!!

Have you finished wrapping yet? 🎁

🎄 Blogmas | Day 17 | Celebrating Christmas with your dog. #blogmas

It’s our very first Christmas with Coco this year and we are so excited!

She has her own stocking which is already filled with lots of presents from Santa Paws.

At the start of December we took Coco too see Santa Paws for the first time at Dogs Trust and she absolutely loved it! Seeing all the other dogs excited too to see Santa was so heart warming, how many owners wanted to get their dogs involved and get them into the Christmas spirit too was wonderful.

I think especially when Christmas for some people is all about been with family and friends you have to get your dog involved too. After all a dog isn’t just for Christmas. They are your family too. Coco is my little baby, she’s my daughter. Lol!!!!

I am honestly looking forward to seeing Riley and Coco this year on Christmas morning opening presents together. They have this special bond and it’s just amazing to see how much a dog can care about a little boy.

Sometimes I wonder if she knows what he’s been though with cancer, I have read online before that dogs are meant to have this instinct that they know when somebody has been poorly and dogs are meant to be really good therapy for children that have disabilities or are and have been poorly.

And of course Coco will be having Christmas dinner with us too. Chicken, carrots, sprouts, roast potatoes she loves it all! She will most definitely be having a few pigs in blankets too! It is Christmas after all.

I hope you all too will be involving your dogs this Christmas, they deserves presents too. After all they give us the greatest love we could ever know everyday.

Here’s just a few ideasv of things I would suggest getting your dog for Christmas.

  • Dog friendly treats.
  • New toys – something Christmas related.
  • Advent calendar.
  • New blanket or bed.

I’ve even got Coco some Christmas Eve pjs and a Christmas dress to wear during Christmas. She loves dressing up.

Cancerversary🎗

🎗FOUR years ago today my heart was broken, i was told my baby had cancer… stage 4 high risk neuroblastoma.

as a family this was the worst day of our lives. we had all these people trying to tell us information about what was going to happen next & all i could think about was what riley was like only a few weeks before like a ‘normal’ child but the child that was sat on my knee now had cancer & he was so poorly.

riley had 15 months worth of treatment – 7 chemotherapy sessions, 4hours in surgery having his main tumour removed, high dose chemotherapy, stem cell transplant where he spent 9 long weeks in the same room after catching so many infections and also spending time in intensive care, 15 radiotherapy sessions, immunotherapy & antibodies treatment riley was put into remission & has been for over 2 years now.

we have met some of the most amazing people throughout this journey, riley has been cared for by the most amazing Oncology Team – his consultants, doctors, nurses and surgeons who will always have a massive place in my heart!🎗

it is the most amazing thing to see riley going to school now, making friends, laughing & smiling. he amazes me every single day and I couldn’t be any more proud of him!

Riley is and always will be our very own super hero🎗

🎗Scanxiety, it’s a thing.

Scanxiety, it’s a thing…

It doesn’t go away,

It comes and goes but it doesn’t go away.

It’s been 3 years, 10months so scan days are nothing new. Maybe this should be getting easier? Sometimes it does, but sometimes it doesn’t.. it hits me like a tone of bricks crashing down on me again and these are the moments when it’s hard to breathe sometimes.

You know it hits you out the blue, I could be driving to Morrison’s and remember it’s scan day next week, tears well up in my eyes until there’s too many and they drip down my cheeks then there I am sniffling and sobbing, a living breathing bundle of anxiety.

I know I should be trusting my gut because that’s telling me everything will be okay and Riley looks amazing but I’d be lying if I told you I didn’t have these moments where the worries and fears just come running in and it seems so much bigger then I can handle!

Here I am tonight, lying in bed wondering what the mri will say tomorrow! Don’t think I’ll get much sleep tonight.

What if there’s a small tiny tumour?

What if there’s a different cancer?

What if, what if, what if?

Just when I think it’s all quiet and calm in my heart the worse case scenarios would start playing out in my head! The memory or when I was told Riley had cancer is there all the time. There is no off button.

For the past 3 years and 10 months all I’ve wanted to do is take this all away from Riley. But I can’t, all I can do is wait for the results.

So that’s what I have to do.

It’s scan day tomorrow.

🎗Goodbye September. CCAM. #ablogaday

So September has passed us by,

The month is nearly done.

We thank you all for going gold,

Each and every one.

We weren’t here to scare you,

We don’t want to annoy.

We simply like to spread the word,

To help your girl or boy.

We sprinkled awareness everywhere,

Shared the stories of those we love.

We’ve Glowed and we’ve sparkled,

To show the hope that we dream of.

For the children who are in pain,

For our babies suffering.

For the parents clinging onto hope,

Why? they are wondering.

For the Angels up in heaven,

We must never stop believing

That one day everyone will know

And they’ll be no more grieving.

So now you know.

You’ve learnt a lot.

Children are suffering,

Much more than you thought.

But for us it won’t be over,

We’re aware every single day.

Please keep spreading glitter,

In each and every way.

For us, our courageous children,

Are far more precious than gold.

For us all we truly want,

Is for our children to grow old.

🎗🎗🎗🎗🎗🎗🎗🎗🎗🎗🎗🎗🎗🎗