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๐ŸŽ—Goodbye September. CCAM. #ablogaday

So September has passed us by,

The month is nearly done.

We thank you all for going gold,

Each and every one.

We weren’t here to scare you,

We don’t want to annoy.

We simply like to spread the word,

To help your girl or boy.

We sprinkled awareness everywhere,

Shared the stories of those we love.

We’ve Glowed and we’ve sparkled,

To show the hope that we dream of.

For the children who are in pain,

For our babies suffering.

For the parents clinging onto hope,

Why? they are wondering.

For the Angels up in heaven,

We must never stop believing

That one day everyone will know

And they’ll be no more grieving.

So now you know.

You’ve learnt a lot.

Children are suffering,

Much more than you thought.

But for us it won’t be over,

We’re aware every single day.

Please keep spreading glitter,

In each and every way.

For us, our courageous children,

Are far more precious than gold.

For us all we truly want,

Is for our children to grow old.

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๐ŸŽ— Thirty days is ending. CCAM #ablogaday day30

Thirty days is ending, the time has passed with ease. Yet more lives have been stolen by this vile beast.

More children it has taken, ripped from loving arms. Leaving pain and guilt behind in those that sought to keep them from harm.

They suffered with families, they suffered on their own. The innocents have suffered too much in a cold room far from home.

Questions go unanswered… “why is there no cure?” Grief is gently hidden, shut behind a door.

It’s said they are our future yet there are no plans it seems. No way to protect our children so they can see all yet to see.

Money spent so needlessly, but no one is set to pay. Who will stand and shout for the young ones as their lives slip away.

Too many rooms unopened, where parents cannot thread. Too many empty chairs, too many children dead.

How many even know the routines? Tears and dread. How many are aware of being gathered around a bed.

A month is passing by. We have shared what we know. It will be on our lips everyday not just when the time of year says so.

When will we start acting? We say they’re our whole life. When will all become aware? Stand together and say “this isn’t right!”

Look upon your babies. Listen to them breathe. Imagine standing all in black as a family that grieves.

It’s easy to ignore because it’s not happening too you. But now, you can not say you didn’t know…

Today is the last day of September which means it is the end of Childhood Cancer Awareness Month too. Well it’s the end for you. But it will never be the end for me and many more oncology parents out there. We raise awareness everyday!

Next time you see a post on Facebook, twitter, Instagram and even on here please take 2 minutes to read. Please make sure you know the sign and the symptoms of Childhood Cancer.

Make sure you kiss your child goodnight.

Riley, I love you. You are so strong, so brave and a fighter. You make me so proud everyday๐ŸŽ—

Hope, dream, believe.

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๐ŸŽ— Do you know what Neuroblastoma is? CCAM. #ablogaday day30

Neuroblastoma is a ‘rare‘ type of cancer that mostly affects babies and young children.

Honestly, I wouldn’t personally say Neuroblastoma is rare. I see so many Childrenโ€™s Facebook & Twitter pages that are fighting Neuroblastoma. To me like 3-4 children is rare… not 50!

Neuroblastoma most commonly occurs in one of the adrenal glands situated above the kidneys, or in the nerve tissue that runs alongside the spinal cord in the neck, chest, tummy or pelvis.

It can spread to other organs such as the bone marrow, bone, lymph nodes, liver and skin.

The symptoms of neuroblastoma vary depending on where the cancer is and whether it has spread.

The early symptoms can be vague and hard to spot, and can easily be mistaken for those of more common childhood conditions.

Trust your instincts, see a medical professional if you have ANY concerns about your childโ€™s health.

Neuroblastoma is relentless, it’s horrific. Childhood cancer can take your child in the blink of an eye.

Riley is my gorgeous beautiful strong brave son. His smile is amazing. He is just perfect! Riley was diagnosed when he was just 21 months old with Stage4 High risk Neuroblastoma. Survival rate 40%. 28|11|2014 ๐ŸŽ—

Riley had 9 rounds Of chemotherapy. Lost his gorgeous blonde hair. 5 hour operation, stem cell transplant. Radiotherapy, immunotherapy and antibody treatment. All these treatments was a success!!!

After 21 months of treatment Riley was placed into remission!

You can follow Riley’s journey on Facebook!

Rileyโ€™s Journey

Hope it is a simple word

Used every single day

But when your life is full of doubt

It can be difficult to say

We hope that Riley doesnโ€™t feel too sick

We hope he’s doing just fine

We hope he’s not in too much pain

We hope he continues to shine

Love it is a simple word

Used every single day

And when your life is filled with love

It can help make the pain go away

We love Riley’s spirit

His charm and his laughter

We love his smile that can light up a room

We love that so many people have supported him

In times filled with fear and gloom

Joy it is a simple word

Used every single day

And when you have joy within your heart

Itโ€™s easy to get through a tough day

We are filled with joy when the news is good

We are joyous and thankful and glad

And Riley’s smile is a joyful reminder

That you can be happy when times might feel sad.

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๐ŸŽ—What being a “Cancer Mum” really means to me. CCAM #ablogaday day26

Honestly,

you wont take anything for granted anymore. you actually know the true meaning of anything can happen at anytime! it doesn’t matter how much money you have or how happy you are. it doesn’t matter how much stress you have already been though in life!

I often wonder if there was something I could have done even when I know there was nothing I could do. I have always said how much I love Riley and honestly I would die for him. I would literally take his cancer out of him into my own body if I could!

I don’t really care about how well he’s doing at school, I’m just glad he’s able to go to school. Some children don’t!

I used to listen to songs and sometimes honestly, I would wonder if I would have to play this at his funeral. Yes, I did think about burying my child! Because honestly, when I was told Riley’s chance of survival was only a small 40% to me it wasn’t a lot! Your mind wonders off. You think, you really over think…

I thought about myself dying, I know I wouldn’t be able to go on if Riley didn’t make it though his cancer. Riley is my only child (for now!) he’s my world, I couldn’t live without him.

Every leg ache, rash, little bruise, headache he has, it makes me feel sick inside. Always thinking the worse could happen again.

I used to want to scream at people! They don’t know how lucky they are! They don’t know what they have got!

I had to come to terms with what could cure him could also kill him and cause future cancers. It destroyed his beautiful body.

A version of my died the day Riley was diagnosed and a new version came alive. I am stronger then ever.

You meet children, you fall in love with them, each their own little superhero. Their parents become your closet friends.

I want to make changes and make a difference but honestly, I don’t even know where to start. I jus hope my voice can one day make that difference!

This is how I feel and I know other oncology parents feel.

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๐ŸŽ— It wasn’t my fault. CCAM #ablogaday day19

It is absolutely devastating to hear that your child has cancer and you will have many different feelings and emotions.

When i was told Riley had cancer, I felt like the world was crashing down around me, i felt numb, I felt like everybody knew what I had just been told. I was shocked, scared, sad, angry, I just didn’t want to believe it and i felt so guilty! I think these are normal reactions. I’ve had conversations with nurses and doctors before about blaming myself and I have to remember its not my fault that Riley got cancer, i didn’t do anything and there was nothing I could do!

Guilt is rife among cancer parents, Was it something I did?

Could I have prevented this?

I know there was nothing I could have done because we don’t know why children get cancer. Whatever causes cancer in children is not the same as what causes cancer in adults. I know its important to know that itโ€™s nothing I did.

Researchers have looked at every possible cause โ€“ from what mummy ate during pregnancy to the parentsโ€™ jobs, to where they live. They canโ€™t come up with a reason why some children get cancer, and others do not.

I guess we pulled the out the short straw.

I think some people think cancer can spread like the flu! Like if their children are near your child they will catch cancer. Its not like that at all. I honestly felt like when Riley was diagnosed that everybody was trying to keep their children away from him because they honestly thought they would catch it!

I used to look at children who had gorgeous hair running around the park or just over at the shop and I used to think what if they have cancer? why wasn’t it you? why did it have to be my child?