Okay so last week I lost a lovely 2 pounds!!! Yeeey I was so happy and definitely planned for another loss this week too but, how I failed this week…
So I bought more slimming world meals on the Saturday morning, ready for my week ahead I knew what I was having. But, Riley started to feel unwell in the afternoon. He was sick, then the diarrhoea started. After he was sick he felt better but he was sleeping a lot that afternoon so I still decided I was going to go out for a meal and cinema like I’d planned.
I went to go to Glass! Wouldn’t waste your time btw.
As soon as I got home I went to check in Riley, as I always do. Riley had had an accident in his sleep, the smell was terrible! After changing his bed and giving him a wash. I was awake most the night, humming and aaarrring weather or not to ring 111 and get some advice. I decided to sleep on it and ring them in the morning…
The Sunday morning he wasn’t much better. He wasn’t eating only drinking, the sickness and diarrhoea was still there and he looked so pale. I decided to ring 111 and get advice. They told me to get to the hospital A&E within the hour. Obviously I was emotionally eating! My sister bless her brought me food to keep me going but because I was tired I just wanted to say rubbish so I did.
Turned out Riley had a terrible bug. Didn’t send him to school Monday and Tuesday. So I carried on eating rubbish followed by more rubbish and more rubbish! Sugar drinks the lot. Anything to keep my energy up because I was just so tired!
Wednesday I didn’t feel that great I was light headed so more sugar drinks and chocolate was my only answer.
Then Thursday I was blessed with my star week. So as you can imagine I’ve had a rubbish week. Urgh.
Sooooooooo… this week the scales said… I had put 1.5lbs ON!
Which I was expecting.
This week I’m going to try my best to get that off and a little more! I’m going to plan ahead. Plan my meals. Plan my snacks. Plan everything I can! I’m going to really push myself.
Wish me luck!!
Riley went back to school yesterday!
I actually set my alarm early to get up and ready before waking Riley up so I was verrrrry organised this morning which is one of my new year resolutions!
I woke him up and told him it was time to go back to school and he burst into tears, saying he didn’t want to leave me. Actually made me abit upset tbh. He gets so used to been at home with me and coco when school breaks up for holidays.
Once we got to school and he saw his friends he was obviously fine.
He managed to have a good day and even did PE outside for a while.
As he was so good his Auntie Alice treated us to Pizza Hut for tea which is his favourite! Who’s favourite tea isn’t pizza!
With me doing slimming world I got a flat bread pizza with lots of salad and it was lovely! Counting my syns for the next two days with that. So I will see what the scales say to me on Friday…. wish me luck!
So its back to the school runs, back to making small talk with the mummies. Haha.
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This New Year’s Eve I’m looking forwards to going into 2019 with a happy and healthy 5 year old son.
I can proudly say this year again Riley hasn’t had to have any cancer related treatment, he’s had to odd physio appointment but no treatment and that is amazing!
Riley has also reached 2 years in remission this year which is definitely something I am proud to tell people. He is definitely my own super hero.
Riley has taken everything all in his stride, school, pe, learning new things and his confidence has grown so much.My beautiful Riley, I hope in 2019 you reach 3 years in remission. I hope you continue to smile and laugh every day. I hope we make lots of wonderful memories together. I hope you have fun with your friends. I hope you help me to grow to be the best mummy I can be to you. I hope you continue to grow in confidence and achieve whatever goals you set yourself.
Whatever 2019 brings for us I will be there for you. I will protect you and love you. I will keep you safe and I promise you will always get your snuggle on a night.
My 5 year old son, my own little superhero, my everything.
You make me feel so lucky, you have made me so proud!
I will love you always.
Mummy x x x
Can you believe it is only 3 more days until Christmas? I can’t!
I have so much wrapping to still do! I’ve not even wrapped half of Riley’s yet let alone my families. So think I will be definitely still wrapping Christmas Eve!!!
I won a photo shoot earlier this December so I picked to have a 3 generation photo shoot with me Riley and my mum. We had our hair and make up done too! Was so nice to have somebody else do my makeup for a change. Wish I would have done my own eyebrows though as the MUA artist only filled in my eyebrows but I prefer them to be popping!
We managed to get some lovely pictures though. Riley wanted to get them all but I didn’t want to be spending loadsssss!!
Have you finished wrapping yet? 🎁
Just being told your child has cancer your entire heart breaks.
Having to kiss your child goodbye as they are wheeled into theatre your entire heart breaks.
Having to hold him down as they try to take blood for the 4th time your entire heart breaks.
Holding a vomit bowl whilst rubbing his back as he throws up after another bunch of poison pumped into him your entire heart breaks.
Noticing his hair on his pillow your entire heart breaks.
Hearing of another child going to play with the angels your entire heart breaks.
Having him look up at you while he enjoys his fave food your heart starts to heal.
Hearing him laugh and seeing him smile your heart starts to heal.
Seeing him run around at home your heart starts to heal.
Hearing him say “I love you mummy” your heart starts to heal.
Cuddling up on sofa watching his fave programme your heart starts to heal.
The consultant saying “good news, scans are all clear!” your heart starts to heal.
Childhood cancer is not rare.
Its never the exact same story for every child. Each child takes a different path, each child’s cancer story has a different ending.
No cancer is the easy one, every one has the same effects, your entire heart breaks, your heart heals.
For some it never does heal but for every parent their heart will never beat the same again…