First Day Back To School 2019 | January ✨

Riley went back to school yesterday!

I actually set my alarm early to get up and ready before waking Riley up so I was verrrrry organised this morning which is one of my new year resolutions!

I woke him up and told him it was time to go back to school and he burst into tears, saying he didn’t want to leave me. Actually made me abit upset tbh. He gets so used to been at home with me and coco when school breaks up for holidays.

Once we got to school and he saw his friends he was obviously fine.

He managed to have a good day and even did PE outside for a while.

As he was so good his Auntie Alice treated us to Pizza Hut for tea which is his favourite! Who’s favourite tea isn’t pizza!

With me doing slimming world I got a flat bread pizza with lots of salad and it was lovely! Counting my syns for the next two days with that. So I will see what the scales say to me on Friday…. wish me luck!

So its back to the school runs, back to making small talk with the mummies. Haha.

x x x x

My new year wish for Riley.

This New Year’s Eve I’m looking forwards to going into 2019 with a happy and healthy 5 year old son.

I can proudly say this year again Riley hasn’t had to have any cancer related treatment, he’s had to odd physio appointment but no treatment and that is amazing!

Riley has also reached 2 years in remission this year which is definitely something I am proud to tell people. He is definitely my own super hero.

Riley has taken everything all in his stride, school, pe, learning new things and his confidence has grown so much.My beautiful Riley, I hope in 2019 you reach 3 years in remission. I hope you continue to smile and laugh every day. I hope we make lots of wonderful memories together. I hope you have fun with your friends. I hope you help me to grow to be the best mummy I can be to you. I hope you continue to grow in confidence and achieve whatever goals you set yourself.

Whatever 2019 brings for us I will be there for you. I will protect you and love you. I will keep you safe and I promise you will always get your snuggle on a night.

My 5 year old son, my own little superhero, my everything.

You make me feel so lucky, you have made me so proud!

I will love you always.

Mummy x x x

🎗 Your heart. CCAM #ablogaday day11

Just being told your child has cancer your entire heart breaks.

Having to kiss your child goodbye as they are wheeled into theatre your entire heart breaks.

Having to hold him down as they try to take blood for the 4th time your entire heart breaks.

Holding a vomit bowl whilst rubbing his back as he throws up after another bunch of poison pumped into him your entire heart breaks.

Noticing his hair on his pillow your entire heart breaks.

Hearing of another child going to play with the angels your entire heart breaks.

Having him look up at you while he enjoys his fave food your heart starts to heal.

Hearing him laugh and seeing him smile your heart starts to heal.

Seeing him run around at home your heart starts to heal.

Hearing him say “I love you mummy” your heart starts to heal.

Cuddling up on sofa watching his fave programme your heart starts to heal.

The consultant saying “good news, scans are all clear!” your heart starts to heal.

Childhood cancer is not rare.

Its never the exact same story for every child. Each child takes a different path, each child’s cancer story has a different ending.

No cancer is the easy one, every one has the same effects, your entire heart breaks, your heart heals.

For some it never does heal but for every parent their heart will never beat the same again…

🎗When did I become aware? CCAM #ablogaday day7

When did I become aware of childhood cancer?

Friday 28th November 2014.

I will never forget the look on the doctors face when he told me “your son has cancer” words no one ever wants to here. Whilst most people would have been in the shops getting their Black Friday Deals I was sat in a room with Riley on my knee been told the worst news.

There are still times, in the middle of the night, first thing in the morning when I still can’t quite believe that my son was diagnosed with cancer!

I was also told that the chance of survival was only 40% which doesn’t seem a lot at all.

A lot of people don’t even know that September is Childhood Cancer Awareness Month. Unless Childhood Cancer effects your family, its may not be something you would be aware of! Awareness can help families that are facing Childhood Cancer feel less alone. Raising awareness this month especially will help other families that haven’t been effected by Childhood Cancer be more aware of the signs and the symptoms. I know it might be scary to think your child having Cancer but wouldn’t you want to be aware? Wouldn’t you want to know what to look out for? I wish I would have known the sign and symptoms and what to look out for. Most Gps aren’t trained on Childhood Cancer and that shows with how many parents have had to take their child to the GP before ending up in hospital getting told the most awful news.

Honestly, if your a parent or carer, educate yourself on knowing the signs and symptoms of Childhood Cancer.

Scan Results 🎗

We have the most wonderful news to share with you all!

Riley’s recent scan results were all

C L E A R!!! 💛💛

This year we are trying so hard to put cancer behind us but when it comes to his 6monthly scans it is hard to not think back to when he was diagnosed and he was having all these different tests and scans done.

It’s always the best sound to hear when his consultant tells me his scans are all clear!! The anxiety stops for another 6 months.

Riley is 5 years old now, he was only 21months when he was diagnosed. He is asking more questions about when he was having treatment for his cancer. So far he’s asked… “has my cancer gone yet” “why didn’t I have any hair” I just try and explain things to him the best that I can with him only been 5 it’s still hard for him to be able to understand things probably. He knows why he didn’t have any hair. His knows why he had a wiggly line and a tube in his nose. He understands more now when he has to go for his MRI scans. We have pictures all over the house of Riley with no hair so it’s understandable he’s going to ask questions. He knows he is a special little boy who has the best superpowers! We got a book from his consultant about Lucy having a tumour so hopefully the more we can read of that he will be able to understand a little bit more…

Riley has now been in remission for 2years! 730days! He’s had 4 clear scans in a row now! Which is bloody amazing!!!

So so so proud of my amazing strong little boy. I will always be every so grateful to the oncology team at the hospital for helping save my little boys life! We had some absolutely horrible times when Riley had his treatment but now it’s all about having fun, counting our blessings and making the most wonderful memories!

I love you Riley.