My new year wish for Riley.

This New Year’s Eve I’m looking forwards to going into 2019 with a happy and healthy 5 year old son.

I can proudly say this year again Riley hasn’t had to have any cancer related treatment, he’s had to odd physio appointment but no treatment and that is amazing!

Riley has also reached 2 years in remission this year which is definitely something I am proud to tell people. He is definitely my own super hero.

Riley has taken everything all in his stride, school, pe, learning new things and his confidence has grown so much.My beautiful Riley, I hope in 2019 you reach 3 years in remission. I hope you continue to smile and laugh every day. I hope we make lots of wonderful memories together. I hope you have fun with your friends. I hope you help me to grow to be the best mummy I can be to you. I hope you continue to grow in confidence and achieve whatever goals you set yourself.

Whatever 2019 brings for us I will be there for you. I will protect you and love you. I will keep you safe and I promise you will always get your snuggle on a night.

My 5 year old son, my own little superhero, my everything.

You make me feel so lucky, you have made me so proud!

I will love you always.

Mummy x x x

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🎗Goodbye September. CCAM. #ablogaday

So September has passed us by,

The month is nearly done.

We thank you all for going gold,

Each and every one.

We weren’t here to scare you,

We don’t want to annoy.

We simply like to spread the word,

To help your girl or boy.

We sprinkled awareness everywhere,

Shared the stories of those we love.

We’ve Glowed and we’ve sparkled,

To show the hope that we dream of.

For the children who are in pain,

For our babies suffering.

For the parents clinging onto hope,

Why? they are wondering.

For the Angels up in heaven,

We must never stop believing

That one day everyone will know

And they’ll be no more grieving.

So now you know.

You’ve learnt a lot.

Children are suffering,

Much more than you thought.

But for us it won’t be over,

We’re aware every single day.

Please keep spreading glitter,

In each and every way.

For us, our courageous children,

Are far more precious than gold.

For us all we truly want,

Is for our children to grow old.

🎗🎗🎗🎗🎗🎗🎗🎗🎗🎗🎗🎗🎗🎗

🎗 Thirty days is ending. CCAM #ablogaday day30

Thirty days is ending, the time has passed with ease. Yet more lives have been stolen by this vile beast.

More children it has taken, ripped from loving arms. Leaving pain and guilt behind in those that sought to keep them from harm.

They suffered with families, they suffered on their own. The innocents have suffered too much in a cold room far from home.

Questions go unanswered… “why is there no cure?” Grief is gently hidden, shut behind a door.

It’s said they are our future yet there are no plans it seems. No way to protect our children so they can see all yet to see.

Money spent so needlessly, but no one is set to pay. Who will stand and shout for the young ones as their lives slip away.

Too many rooms unopened, where parents cannot thread. Too many empty chairs, too many children dead.

How many even know the routines? Tears and dread. How many are aware of being gathered around a bed.

A month is passing by. We have shared what we know. It will be on our lips everyday not just when the time of year says so.

When will we start acting? We say they’re our whole life. When will all become aware? Stand together and say “this isn’t right!”

Look upon your babies. Listen to them breathe. Imagine standing all in black as a family that grieves.

It’s easy to ignore because it’s not happening too you. But now, you can not say you didn’t know…

Today is the last day of September which means it is the end of Childhood Cancer Awareness Month too. Well it’s the end for you. But it will never be the end for me and many more oncology parents out there. We raise awareness everyday!

Next time you see a post on Facebook, twitter, Instagram and even on here please take 2 minutes to read. Please make sure you know the sign and the symptoms of Childhood Cancer.

Make sure you kiss your child goodnight.

Riley, I love you. You are so strong, so brave and a fighter. You make me so proud everyday🎗

Hope, dream, believe.

🎗 Your heart. CCAM #ablogaday day11

Just being told your child has cancer your entire heart breaks.

Having to kiss your child goodbye as they are wheeled into theatre your entire heart breaks.

Having to hold him down as they try to take blood for the 4th time your entire heart breaks.

Holding a vomit bowl whilst rubbing his back as he throws up after another bunch of poison pumped into him your entire heart breaks.

Noticing his hair on his pillow your entire heart breaks.

Hearing of another child going to play with the angels your entire heart breaks.

Having him look up at you while he enjoys his fave food your heart starts to heal.

Hearing him laugh and seeing him smile your heart starts to heal.

Seeing him run around at home your heart starts to heal.

Hearing him say “I love you mummy” your heart starts to heal.

Cuddling up on sofa watching his fave programme your heart starts to heal.

The consultant saying “good news, scans are all clear!” your heart starts to heal.

Childhood cancer is not rare.

Its never the exact same story for every child. Each child takes a different path, each child’s cancer story has a different ending.

No cancer is the easy one, every one has the same effects, your entire heart breaks, your heart heals.

For some it never does heal but for every parent their heart will never beat the same again…

🎗When did I become aware? CCAM #ablogaday day7

When did I become aware of childhood cancer?

Friday 28th November 2014.

I will never forget the look on the doctors face when he told me “your son has cancer” words no one ever wants to here. Whilst most people would have been in the shops getting their Black Friday Deals I was sat in a room with Riley on my knee been told the worst news.

There are still times, in the middle of the night, first thing in the morning when I still can’t quite believe that my son was diagnosed with cancer!

I was also told that the chance of survival was only 40% which doesn’t seem a lot at all.

A lot of people don’t even know that September is Childhood Cancer Awareness Month. Unless Childhood Cancer effects your family, its may not be something you would be aware of! Awareness can help families that are facing Childhood Cancer feel less alone. Raising awareness this month especially will help other families that haven’t been effected by Childhood Cancer be more aware of the signs and the symptoms. I know it might be scary to think your child having Cancer but wouldn’t you want to be aware? Wouldn’t you want to know what to look out for? I wish I would have known the sign and symptoms and what to look out for. Most Gps aren’t trained on Childhood Cancer and that shows with how many parents have had to take their child to the GP before ending up in hospital getting told the most awful news.

Honestly, if your a parent or carer, educate yourself on knowing the signs and symptoms of Childhood Cancer.