Okay so last week I lost a lovely 2 pounds!!! Yeeey I was so happy and definitely planned for another loss this week too but, how I failed this week…
So I bought more slimming world meals on the Saturday morning, ready for my week ahead I knew what I was having. But, Riley started to feel unwell in the afternoon. He was sick, then the diarrhoea started. After he was sick he felt better but he was sleeping a lot that afternoon so I still decided I was going to go out for a meal and cinema like I’d planned.
I went to go to Glass! Wouldn’t waste your time btw.
As soon as I got home I went to check in Riley, as I always do. Riley had had an accident in his sleep, the smell was terrible! After changing his bed and giving him a wash. I was awake most the night, humming and aaarrring weather or not to ring 111 and get some advice. I decided to sleep on it and ring them in the morning…
The Sunday morning he wasn’t much better. He wasn’t eating only drinking, the sickness and diarrhoea was still there and he looked so pale. I decided to ring 111 and get advice. They told me to get to the hospital A&E within the hour. Obviously I was emotionally eating! My sister bless her brought me food to keep me going but because I was tired I just wanted to say rubbish so I did.
Turned out Riley had a terrible bug. Didn’t send him to school Monday and Tuesday. So I carried on eating rubbish followed by more rubbish and more rubbish! Sugar drinks the lot. Anything to keep my energy up because I was just so tired!
Wednesday I didn’t feel that great I was light headed so more sugar drinks and chocolate was my only answer.
Then Thursday I was blessed with my star week. So as you can imagine I’ve had a rubbish week. Urgh.
Sooooooooo… this week the scales said… I had put 1.5lbs ON!
Which I was expecting.
This week I’m going to try my best to get that off and a little more! I’m going to plan ahead. Plan my meals. Plan my snacks. Plan everything I can! I’m going to really push myself.
Wish me luck!!
This year I am definitely going to be sharing my Slimming World journey with you all, my meal plan each week and if the scales were good to me.
As I didn’t really eat slimming world friendly at all over Christmas and new year I have been dreading what the scales are going to say to me on a Friday.
But I’m going to be honest, I’m going to share pictures of my body etc because I think it will help motive myself and hopefully other people.
I want to be healthy for Riley, I want to feel good about myself. I don’t want people to look at me and think ‘she’s fat’ I don’t want my grandad telling me I’ve got three chins either – don’t worry he only jokes, I hope!
So every Friday I will be sharing a weekly slimming world blog post. I will let you know what the scales say and I will be totally honest!
Each Friday after group me and my friend also go to subway for lunch, its something we both look forward to each week! A footlong and a pack of cookies, its literally making my mouth water just thinking about the cookies right now.
So this week, I have lost 1.5lbs!
Quite happy with that tbh, since I went out for tea on Tuesday and had a Pizza Hut so yeah I am happy with that little loss! But I obviously know I would have lost more if I wouldn’t have had the Pizza Hut. Oh and the few little chocolates I’ve been pinching out my box on a night.
So next week I’m going to aim for… 3pounds!!!!! Do you think I’ll be able to do it?
Going to be doing my meal plan for next week tonight and plan some really speedy meals!
Having pizza for tea tonight for my little treat for the weekend!
Have a great Friday guys! x x x x
Riley went back to school yesterday!
I actually set my alarm early to get up and ready before waking Riley up so I was verrrrry organised this morning which is one of my new year resolutions!
I woke him up and told him it was time to go back to school and he burst into tears, saying he didn’t want to leave me. Actually made me abit upset tbh. He gets so used to been at home with me and coco when school breaks up for holidays.
Once we got to school and he saw his friends he was obviously fine.
He managed to have a good day and even did PE outside for a while.
As he was so good his Auntie Alice treated us to Pizza Hut for tea which is his favourite! Who’s favourite tea isn’t pizza!
With me doing slimming world I got a flat bread pizza with lots of salad and it was lovely! Counting my syns for the next two days with that. So I will see what the scales say to me on Friday…. wish me luck!
So its back to the school runs, back to making small talk with the mummies. Haha.
x x x x
🎗FOUR years ago today my heart was broken, i was told my baby had cancer… stage 4 high risk neuroblastoma.
as a family this was the worst day of our lives. we had all these people trying to tell us information about what was going to happen next & all i could think about was what riley was like only a few weeks before like a ‘normal’ child but the child that was sat on my knee now had cancer & he was so poorly.
riley had 15 months worth of treatment – 7 chemotherapy sessions, 4hours in surgery having his main tumour removed, high dose chemotherapy, stem cell transplant where he spent 9 long weeks in the same room after catching so many infections and also spending time in intensive care, 15 radiotherapy sessions, immunotherapy & antibodies treatment riley was put into remission & has been for over 2 years now.
we have met some of the most amazing people throughout this journey, riley has been cared for by the most amazing Oncology Team – his consultants, doctors, nurses and surgeons who will always have a massive place in my heart!🎗
it is the most amazing thing to see riley going to school now, making friends, laughing & smiling. he amazes me every single day and I couldn’t be any more proud of him!
Riley is and always will be our very own super hero🎗
Scanxiety, it’s a thing…
It doesn’t go away,
It comes and goes but it doesn’t go away.
It’s been 3 years, 10months so scan days are nothing new. Maybe this should be getting easier? Sometimes it does, but sometimes it doesn’t.. it hits me like a tone of bricks crashing down on me again and these are the moments when it’s hard to breathe sometimes.
You know it hits you out the blue, I could be driving to Morrison’s and remember it’s scan day next week, tears well up in my eyes until there’s too many and they drip down my cheeks then there I am sniffling and sobbing, a living breathing bundle of anxiety.
I know I should be trusting my gut because that’s telling me everything will be okay and Riley looks amazing but I’d be lying if I told you I didn’t have these moments where the worries and fears just come running in and it seems so much bigger then I can handle!
Here I am tonight, lying in bed wondering what the mri will say tomorrow! Don’t think I’ll get much sleep tonight.
What if there’s a small tiny tumour?
What if there’s a different cancer?
What if, what if, what if?
Just when I think it’s all quiet and calm in my heart the worse case scenarios would start playing out in my head! The memory or when I was told Riley had cancer is there all the time. There is no off button.
For the past 3 years and 10 months all I’ve wanted to do is take this all away from Riley. But I can’t, all I can do is wait for the results.
So that’s what I have to do.
It’s scan day tomorrow.